A New Normal

Spencer and I are slowly, but definitely not fully, adjusting to a new normal. Spencer went back to work last week and I am so thankful he loves his job and the people he works with. His boss has been so understanding and compassionate towards us. I am not working, which was the plan all along, but now that things have changed, we don't know whether I should look for a job or not. We hope to have more children soon, so we are debating whether it is worth me finding a job for a "short" period of time and then quitting. I know I need to find something for me to do during the day...whether it is me finding a career job, a fun job or do some sort of volunteer work. I know God will reveal to us what we should do. Thankfully, my parents and Spencer's parents have come down last week and this week for a few days to keep me company.

Not a day goes by where we don't think about Jake and Ty. There is always a deep sadness, but a sweet sadness. It feels like a part of me is missing. We miss them so much but we know they are in a better place. We will always be their parents. I will always be their mother. God is so good and He loves us so much. He knows what it is to lose a Son and we know he is grieving along side us. He gives us strength for each day.