One Year. 365 Days. We won't be planning a birthday party or documenting milestones in their growth or accomplishments. I can't believe it has been one year. It sounds so long ago but feels like it was just yesterday. One year ago today, tonight actually at 8:51pm and 9:02pm CST, we had to say goodbye to our boys before we were ready. I miss them so much. I miss them so much it hurts. I would give anything to be able to hold them just one more time. Not one day has gone by that I haven't thought about them or wondered what they would have looked like as they grew older or what their first words would have been or how I missed getting to see their special twin bond play out outside the womb. I just miss them. I want to hug on them and love on them. I miss my boys. Jake was always the feisty one. Jake would always be the one to instigate the kicking and punching. We have an ultrasound DVD of them and Jake is going to town on Ty and I guess Ty got fed up and he just gave Jake a big ole kick and then it was non-stop kicking party in my belly. It was the cutest thing. They did everything pretty much the same as the other - sleeping or playing, they both did the same thing at the same time. I remember thinking how cute that was and how glad I was that they had each other as brothers. I'm so thankful for the many ultrasound pictures and DVD's. They truly captured their little personalities. During the pregnancy, Spencer and I got to spend so much time together. He was able to come to every doctor's appointment except one and I am so thankful we were able to see our boys grow together. We are so thankful for the short time we were able to spend with them and we love our boys so much.We rejoice that they are having the biggest birthday party with our heavenly Father in Heaven and that one day, we will be reunited again.
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ReplyDeleteThis happened last year when we were on vacation for our anniversary. I knew it was coming up and have been thinking about you guys and praying for comfort and peace. :) (I misspelled peace as peach in the first one.)
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ReplyDeleteDearest neice and nephew, we feel your pain and have had you both close in our thoughts and prayers as we knew how very hard this time was going to be. We love you and we too miss all the joy that our "great" nephews would have brought to our family. much love Aunt C and Uncle D
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ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your heart. Your loss is overwhelming, however you have managed with grace and poise.
No parent wants to let go of our dearly beloved children. It is the most heartbreaking thing to endure.
My hope and prayer is that the future is bright and your prayers for a family are answered.
My love, Lisa Spitzer
Emily & Spencer-
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful tribute to the most special babies. Emily - You have been such an amazing example of love, courage and inspiration to so many people. My wish is that you get that back a million fold in your life! I know that those two tiny holes in you heart will never be mended. I pray that GOD's grace will bring you unending amounts of joy, love and laughter back into your hearts and your blessed life. With love my friend- Peg
Emily-
ReplyDeleteWhat a special post written by one of the most loving, special people in the whole world. I know that your boys blessed your lives but they were blessed Emily to have you as their mother. You are and will always be a wonderful mother who loves her children so much. You have blessed so many people's lives Emily through the way that you have truly given your boys and this situation over to the Lord.
My prayer for you is that God continues to give you healing and comfort, and continues to use your story to bring him glory.I also pray that God blesses you in more ways than you can ever imagine. My prayer also is that he blesses you with dozens more children that will be blessed just like your boys were to call you their mother.
love you emily,
Christine
Emily, I am praying for you during this time. You amaze me. My prayer is that God is your comfort and strength during this time and that he blesses your family greatly. Jake and Ty were so blessed to have you carry them and nurture them. I am thinking about and praying for you tonight!
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